The onset of schizophrenia: an inside perspective
By Jack Bragen on The following is a narrative of the onset of schizophrenia, told from the perspective of the individual who is in the process of becoming ill.
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Reflections from a recovering meth addict
By Bobby Nobel on I think it’s safe to say meth ruined my life. At least for the time being. It changed my outlook on life and it changed people’s outlook on me.
For people with mental illness, jail should never be normalized
By Jack Bragen on People who violate our overly complex and needlessly punitive web of laws, when they do so due to being disconnected from reality due to a psychiatric illness, are suffering from an illness and they are not criminals.
The ‘secret homeless’
By Ace Backwords on Generally I like to think of myself as the “secret homeless"—you would walk right by me and never guess I was homeless.
My first holiday free, alone, and away from my prison family
By Jonathan Chiu on This year, I’m spending my first Christmas in 16 years as a free man, but because of the pandemic, I am again separated from my family. I feel the same loneliness I felt inside, but it’s by choice.
The final days of Jerkle, the wild turkey of the Berkeley hills
By Ace Backwords on I had a poignant moment at my campsite this morning. Involving those goddamn wild turkeys, believe it or not. My hated enemies. But as much of a nemesis and a pain in the ass they can be, I realized there was a bond there.
Late night on the Berkeley campus in the time of COVID-19
By Ace Backwords on When the Berkeley campus first went into lockdown, it was great for me. Because I had the whole campus to myself. But gradually, more and more people realized there was this big expanse of unoccupied green space right in the middle of the city. So more and more people are hanging out here every day.
A strange young woman appears on the Arcata street scene
By Ace Backwords on The street scene is like watching a movie. Except you only get the middle act of the movie. You don’t get the first act or the third act. You don’t know their life story—what led up to them being the people that they are. And you almost never find out how their lives turned out.
We were locked in our rooms due to COVID-19
By Gary Child on We were locked in our rooms due to COVID-19 but allowed to use the restroom with, at times, 10 to 15 inmates. We line up for meds four times a day at least 10 to 20 deep. If you ask the correctional officer (CO) to wear gloves, they’ll refuse your meds.
Why would anyone want to live on the street?
By Timothy Busby on Only after I accepted the fact that the person I was before was never coming back…could I begin to accept another life.
I am incarcerated at San Quentin. I have COVID-19.
By Thanh Tran on I write this after 3 days of being curled into a fetal position, fighting off COVID-19. I was sick and bedridden when I received my test results that read, "COVID Negative." This is what it looks like to test someone and then try to transfer them.
Right side of history
By Steve Brooks on When future generations look back on the devastation caused by this coronavirus pandemic, they are likely going to say that what happened to incarcerated populations in America’s prisons is tantamount to crimes against humanity.